Not everyone will understand your journey. Thats fine. It's not their journey to make sense of. It's yours.
In college, my favourite class was English 101.
Our curriculum was a little unorthodox, we didn't use your average English textbooks. In fact, we didn't even have textbooks...we had A book that shaped they way I write and the stories from it still stick with me today. The Writers Way, I highly recommend it for anyone who loves to read, write, or learn about life.
One essay that made an impact with me, was driven by a simple focus: finding connections.
The writer gave an example in the most beautiful 6 paragraphs I've ever read. Get ready for some pititful paraphrasing, and then go fix the damage I do by reading it yourself ;)
He was driving away from his home, moving to college and heading to the complete unknown. It was dark outside, and pouring down rain...he couldn't see clearly and he was upset. He didn't want to leave, he had no idea what to expect from the future and he longed to stay in the comfort of his home and life and relationships there. The rain beat down harder and harder on his windshield, seemingly matching his emotions, pounding and dark. Suddenly, he caught sight of the rearview mirror, and it took him aback at how clearly he could see behind him. The car blocked the force of the rain and wind enough to make the road completely visible. As he became fixiated with the clarity of what was behind him, his car started drifting into the other lane, right into the line of a semi headed his way. The horn blasted him back to reality and he swerved quickly into his lane, grateful it was in time to save his life.
It was that moment that he made the connection: If you get so caught up in looking behind you, you can't see where your going.
Pretty simple yes?
But so life changing.
Albeit, the author was trying to make a point for your writing skills--its good to make connections because it makes what your saying more relatable, but the story itself is what stuck with me. Ha So I guess he proved his own point!
Lately I've been looking in the rearview mirror with more focus than 20\20 vision. Not just on my most recent life in Chelan, but on everything, rehashing memories forgotten and chewing on old anger, old sadness, old roads that I didn't walk down, or roads that I did. It's easier to do that you know, when your in a place that has nothing familiar, and I've had plenty of alone time on my hands lately that just open up that whole scary world of THINKING.
Ha I know you can relate to this.
Not all of it is bad, some are the sweetest memories that give me courage or splash a smile on my face in the middle of a crowded room for no reason. Those are the ones worth hanging onto.
But hanging on so tightly to everything behind me is hindering what I'm doing right now. It makes it hard to make memories when I'm stuck in the ones I made 3 months or 3 years ago. Anyways, all this rambling to say that I'm learning (for the umpteenth time) how important it is to be in the present, to look forward and be fully aware of the steering wheel you have in your hands and how your turning it.
So that is the intro and somewhat explanation for this song. You can put as much distance between yourself and the past as you want, but you will always be with YOU. Your memories, your hurts, your joys, your experiences...so make sure to SAY HELLO to what is ahead. Look back and remember, but don't let it hinder what's now.
Since I am over here in Prague with what I could fit in a back pack--I don't have my recording equipment with me!! :( <------yes this called for an un-smiley face. So that is why the sound quality is what it is...but no complaints here, I have a phone that at least lets me get these songs out there!!
Our curriculum was a little unorthodox, we didn't use your average English textbooks. In fact, we didn't even have textbooks...we had A book that shaped they way I write and the stories from it still stick with me today. The Writers Way, I highly recommend it for anyone who loves to read, write, or learn about life.
One essay that made an impact with me, was driven by a simple focus: finding connections.
The writer gave an example in the most beautiful 6 paragraphs I've ever read. Get ready for some pititful paraphrasing, and then go fix the damage I do by reading it yourself ;)
He was driving away from his home, moving to college and heading to the complete unknown. It was dark outside, and pouring down rain...he couldn't see clearly and he was upset. He didn't want to leave, he had no idea what to expect from the future and he longed to stay in the comfort of his home and life and relationships there. The rain beat down harder and harder on his windshield, seemingly matching his emotions, pounding and dark. Suddenly, he caught sight of the rearview mirror, and it took him aback at how clearly he could see behind him. The car blocked the force of the rain and wind enough to make the road completely visible. As he became fixiated with the clarity of what was behind him, his car started drifting into the other lane, right into the line of a semi headed his way. The horn blasted him back to reality and he swerved quickly into his lane, grateful it was in time to save his life.
It was that moment that he made the connection: If you get so caught up in looking behind you, you can't see where your going.
Pretty simple yes?
But so life changing.
Albeit, the author was trying to make a point for your writing skills--its good to make connections because it makes what your saying more relatable, but the story itself is what stuck with me. Ha So I guess he proved his own point!
Lately I've been looking in the rearview mirror with more focus than 20\20 vision. Not just on my most recent life in Chelan, but on everything, rehashing memories forgotten and chewing on old anger, old sadness, old roads that I didn't walk down, or roads that I did. It's easier to do that you know, when your in a place that has nothing familiar, and I've had plenty of alone time on my hands lately that just open up that whole scary world of THINKING.
Ha I know you can relate to this.
Not all of it is bad, some are the sweetest memories that give me courage or splash a smile on my face in the middle of a crowded room for no reason. Those are the ones worth hanging onto.
But hanging on so tightly to everything behind me is hindering what I'm doing right now. It makes it hard to make memories when I'm stuck in the ones I made 3 months or 3 years ago. Anyways, all this rambling to say that I'm learning (for the umpteenth time) how important it is to be in the present, to look forward and be fully aware of the steering wheel you have in your hands and how your turning it.
So that is the intro and somewhat explanation for this song. You can put as much distance between yourself and the past as you want, but you will always be with YOU. Your memories, your hurts, your joys, your experiences...so make sure to SAY HELLO to what is ahead. Look back and remember, but don't let it hinder what's now.
Since I am over here in Prague with what I could fit in a back pack--I don't have my recording equipment with me!! :( <------yes this called for an un-smiley face. So that is why the sound quality is what it is...but no complaints here, I have a phone that at least lets me get these songs out there!!